Do You Ever Feel Stuck?

This pandemic season is really life-changing. Anxiety takes over your peace of mind all the time. 
You aren't even sure if you're safe the next days, weeks, or months, especially, if you live in my country where the curve did not even flatten. And amidst this, you also have personal issues and an emotional hell of a phase... like you aren't moving at all. Overthinking alert!

Well, have you ever felt so stuck about your life? Not moving at all, not a glimpse of the future, and you feel so terrible. Well, I gotta admit, this is like a hell-phase. I have always wanted to start over and rethink all my decisions in life, but I feel so hopeless and demotivated. 

That's why I'm writing this, maybe someone out there, is feeling this hopelessness too. Well, I kind of wanna know if I'm the only one, but maybe not, maybe some people are suffering inside in their head. And I feel for you, guys. 

Although I feel so terrible about a lot of things going on around and inside me, I'm also curious, maybe someday something better in this life will come. It feels like emotional hell right now, but life's a surprise and mystery, right? 

Maybe, I just need to hang on and keep going, even though these words have been repeatedly spoken inside my head, I just need to try and try until I come to a point of stability. But, I'm not sure about stability though, if you already knew from the beginning, it will still going to be messy. 

Even if I feel so hopeless, stuck, and miserable, life's still fair though. I still can't accept it's my dead end. Maybe, this is just one of the chapters in my life where holding on to your self and a little faith is a must.

I think I just need to renew my faith and reinvent me, think over my decisions, again and again, believe in this vision that one day, there'll be a better place. 

I suck at motivating myself, but thanks SELF, you are staying strong!

The Iconic FRIENDS TV Show

I've been a fan of F.R.I.E.N.D.S since early 2019. I haven't watched it before until a friend of mine recommends it. And yeah, I'm in for a non-stop laugh and happiness, it's my stress reliever and refuge from sorrow at times. I was so young and I can't quite understand it before, I remember I saw Ross and Rachel there, I think I was 10, and the TV we used is still the traditional one, but I have no idea what they were saying and why it's funny. Lol. 

Thanks, Netflix! You saved me! Please don't remove it. 

I never knew a show could have an effect on me since I'm not really fond of watching super long seasons. To be honest, the Vampire Diaries is really good but sad to say, I didn't continue to watch it coz my heart is already broken. lol. I can't bear to watch it and I see the season is very long so I give-up easily, I'm sorry my fragile my heart. 

But F.R.I.E.N.D.S is my only exception, it's a series that you will get to enjoy and laugh at every line and you wish there will be more than 10 seasons to watch. I wish to have more of Chandler's sarcastic tone and lame jokes. Phoebe's quirkiness and realness, Joey's super funny reaction and childish ways, Rachel's gorgeous face, and braveness even when she's scared, Monica's controlling but caring ways, and Ross' hilarious expression. This squad makes me laugh so much and until now, even if I finished all the 10 seasons, I'm rewatching since the start.